beautiful

People tell me I'm beautiful
But people don't make me feel beautiful

People say it's all in my head
but I feel it in every other part of my body
and my soul

I'm the photographer
but not the model
my fashion is an armor
not against others
but to defend me from my own
gaze

I'm hopeful someday
I'll feel beautiful
once more.

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